I Mean... I Guess

I Mean... I Guess...
Its a phrase that I've had to say very often
because its clear that i'm not sure what's in front of me
i would be able to see what is in front of me
by looking behind me,
but there is an opaque glass pushing against my back
and when i try to turn around, all i see is the dark gray fog
clouding my judgement.
Yet, they like to say that "real eyes realize real lies."
And though that might be true,
But the question still remains: Who's really real?
I've kept my eyes on the prize
Since I once heard on the wind's breath,
"obstacles are the things that come only when
you take your eyes off of the beauty of the world
that you see," and want.
before you realize it, it's these obstacles you flaunt.
I've had my share of trials and tribulations
Sorry my life doesn't come with instructions.
That's why I make mistakes.
But you have no reason to judge me.
For this is who I am, and this is who I was meant to be
before i was formed in my mother's womb,
this was destined to happen. For i am becoming
a beautiful creature.  I might be on the dark side of the fence
but don't forget that I am a dark fantasy,
And what the Lord has in store for me?

That's something you'll be proud to see ♥